you know what.this world is just full of people with overly high expectations.higher chinese need A1 or A2 then can take.wtf la.ok,maybe other people can meet that kind of expectations,but not many lehs.and,if we have to risk our,4,5 years of hard work in higher cl on one examination that has such high expectations,then its quite unfair.i mean,i agree that one examination to decide,without connections to earlier stuff,is good.cos it actually tests your real strength instead of how much effort you put in on homework.but the bar is kinda high isnt it?ok.perhaps its just my personnal weakness,or selfish view,but i think it is set quite high.language is not a subject one can 'si bei',mug,or spam info.while doing practice can help you improve,but its more of a,can do or cannot do thing.can means can,cannot then how much you mug also useless.if its a subject like that,then expectations shouldnt be set so high right?cos then there wun be an alternative for people who can get Bs only.haiz.dun know la.recently just quite emo.nothign really going smoothly.too tired to even swear.
recently tio suspected frostbite.sprayed by Ambi Pure air freshner gas(damn cold,really.)at close range continuously.was actually,kinda of shiok shiok pain at first,like morning then got spray of cold water to wake up and refresh with.later start,just hurting.quite ass the pain.then became numb,but with tingling and burning sensation.all symptioms matched.left was it turning black before i have to amputate.so i went home and receieved treatment by placing the affected finger in warm(not hot,warm) water for quite awhile.now it grew a blister.thats slowly shrinking.is this a sign that its recovering?lets hope so.it would seriously suck to lose a finger.even if its my pinkie.
holdiays have arrived.but then,i have dedicated myself to studying as much as i can will myself to.less games and outings if possible.i want this holiday to be one for recuperation and study.final year coming.and if i can help it i want to go up to sec 4 smoothly,with higher chinese attached if possible.it would,once again,seriously suck if i was retained.no offence to retainees.its nothing to be ashamed of.one more year at secondary level aint nothing to be sad about.its the way the teachers and parents and adults look at you that really sucks.like me,my results suck and being looked down upon now is already sucking alot.imagine if i was retained.the looks and stares i have to bear would be quite overwhealming.so i shall try my best to work hard for the final years and try my best to abstain from all distractions.i know i dun be able to abstain completely(if i could i'd be bald,wearing a robe,eating veggies all day,and chanting some mantra while knocking on a hollow wooden thingy.)but i'll try.gonna start with listening in class.in ALL my classes.
6i class gathering.quite fun.yeah.met people not met in quite long.everyone's the same.quite,the same.maybe taller?more mature?pics uploaded above if you didnt notice.sun guanhua(sunny) took most of the pics.and he was in most of the pics.try to spot him.haha...btw,got one pic,some guy with a retarded face?the mouth half open one?thats me.i tried to make an obscene facial expression but thought better of it in the end.but i wasnt fast enough.so yeah.
anyways,its late.stop here then.
